Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Update on where we stand with the IVF study

Well, I received my medical records from my RE and Ross faxed them in. I called the study to make sure they received them and the man told me to call when I get my period!!! So basically when AF comes, I will be going to NY on CD 2 or 3!!! I am trying to remain so hopeful. I went through my medical records and it really seems like we fit the categories of what they are looking for, but it really all depends on how my body is when I go for my 1st appointment!! Now all I have to worry about is my job..

I am so scared and upset because I talked to my boss about everything. She said I can fill out FMLA (that way my absences when I have to go for the trial will be protected and I won't get any occurances) but the only problem with that is it only lasts 16 weeks. So basically if I WERE to get pregnant and something were to happy to where I would need to be on bed rest, my job wouldn't be protected anymore :( I am so scared that I could possibly lose my job if I would have to be off later down the road. I just don't think I can pass up this opportunity if we get it. This will be a once in a lifetime chance and this is the WORLD to us!! I guess I just need to bite the bullet and do it and if I lose my job, it won't be for a long time and I will have to worry about that later!! Please say a prayer that I can get into this trial!! PLEASE!!

I have been reading the book "A Few Good Eggs". I'm only just beginning but it's so true!! Nobody understands infertility unless you have been through it! Because I can't get knocked up like everyone else, I could possibly lose my job?! It's just SO unfair!!! I'm going to go read some more of the book now..but wanted to update!!

Friday, February 6, 2009

A little hope? PLEASE GOD!!!

Well, I am hoping that something amazing will work out. A dear friend, Ana, from mybabyish posted and said there is an IVF study in New York City, so she sent me the info and I have "applied" if you will. The first bit was only a few questions and then I received an e-mail telling me to log in and complete a longer health summary. However, at the end it said that they will contact me with the date of my first appointment..so right off the bat, my hopes are UP!! I had hoped to not get my hopes up, but it just all feels so within reach! I guess I just need to have faith in that what is meant to be, will be, and if it doesn't work out..then that's okay, at least I tried. I just hope so much that Ana and I can go through this together!! She is in Florida and I am in Ohio, and it would be a lot of traveling for the both of us, but how amazing would this be?! I just pray that it will work out with my job (if it happens at all) and our finances. OHHH PLEASE WORK OUT!!

In other news, I am having surgery on Tuesday to remove yet ANOTHER kidney stone. Blah!! In December or so I had to have Lithotripsy to blast a kidney stone, and apparently a piece of it is now stuck right up against my bladder. I don't feel it (thank God..that is a miracle in itself!) but the doctor wants to be sure to get it out so it doesn't cause a blockage and cause bigger problems down the road. They basically have to go up my Ureter (which is where you pee) and blast it up into smaller pieces and remove the pieces. TALK ABOUT OUCH!! I have had this once before and was sooo sore right afterwards..like the worst burning in the world when urinating!! SOO not looking forward to this.

I am also getting braces in 3 weeks as well! I am pretty excited but I know what to expect. I have already had braces before but my Orthodontist found that my bottom teeth are too big for my jaw so no matter what they would have gone back to being crooked. So I have to have my front bottom teeth shaved down on the sides to make room for them to be straight. Anyway, I will have to post pics when I am a brace-face!!!

That's all for now, just wanted to get it off of my chest!